unsoshabl

In my darkest state of mind
I am riddled with despair
When I try and close my eyes
Your voice is all I hear
I will think of you tonight
I will hold back all my tears
I’ve waited all these years

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain don’t go away

I see your shadow all the time
I see your face inside my mirror
Like a sunset in the sky
You distract me from my fears
I keep holding it inside
And I wish that you were near
It’s better when You’re here

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain don’t go away

All the things you said
And all the games we played
Will come back to you
See the look in your eyes
Ooooh, don’t’ go away

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain why I feel this way
It’s hard to say
I want to make you see
What you mean to me
Don’t go away

This is a note from an ex of mine.

I just want to tell you how truly happy I am for you. I’ve been going to write for awhile now and think of you quite often. Every 3 doors down song seems to remind me of you and a whole lot of nickelback. She must be one lucky girl, and I hope she treats you with all of the love and respect you deserve. You are an amazing Dad, life just had a way of making it hard on you from the start I think. Please keep me posted on how things are going. I miss you and I so badly want to think of you being part of a happy family!
Thinking of you…….from Far Away………..

I always seem to be second best, and it drives me nuts….

If not second…. its a higher number.

I want to obtain my goals, my dreams. I want to go to school, but it seems just so far out of reach. I want to own a home but that seems totally impossible. I want to have a family, but that never seems to work…..

Always second… always to far out of reach… always bleh…

I will have my dreams, I will obtain my goals, I will succeed and I will prove all this…. to noone but myself.

I am miserable

There comes a time, a Point in Time where one must say enough. I am coming to that point. I can only handle so much. I have tried and tried. I cannot take it anymore. I cant stand co-existing/co-habitating when there is nothing personal. I feel like a tool, literally a tool. A means of nessesity rather than anything else. I should be a luxury. A means of pleasure rather than anything, not a means of nessesity.

Tired of the fight. The fight of a hope, a hope which you are unsure of.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very mad world … mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world