Tired, but Determined
August 20th, 2010Good day all,
I know it has been awhile again. Just been concentrating on life and getting geared up for having a new baby. Yes, I will be the proud parent of a new child. I am excited. Super Excited. The circumstances are less then nominal, but I am hopeful for the best and will provide the best for this child.
I am working hard and trying to get another job on top of the two I have now, just so I can save and try to get a house prior to the baby coming at the end of Feb. It is stressful, but a good thing as it has given my life even more direction.
I get down and depressed still, but I am trying my best not to. It is hard when the situation sucks. But this too, shall pass. 8) I will say that I am very greatful for my friends. The old friends that support me and the new friends that I didnt realize I had. All are wonderful and very supportive of me. Thank you all, even though I know you will never read this, as you dont know its here.
See I am in love with the mother of my unborn child, but she has decided to be with someone else. I dont think it is a wise decision for her, but I will support her in her decision. Perhaps she will see soon that it isnt a great situation for her. Only she can wake up to see the truth of the situation. We had it great for 6 months and that I will keep in my mind and not allow the nasty crap that has happened recently to spoil my memories.
I want to go back to school, but at this point I dont think I will be able to for a little while. maybe a year or two. We shall see. I have had several women ask me out since this whole thing with baby mama has occurred, but I am not ready. Yeh, it would be nice to have sex again, but right now I dont want any emotional stuff unless it is baby mama. I would love to sleep with her again, one last time before she moves, but I dont think that will ever happen again. And that is ok, as I will move on soon enough. I just want to get my life straightened out first.
More to come later, so check back in…
sosh
-sosh