Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I’d crumble
Did you think I’d lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I’ll be alive
I’ve got all my life to live
I’ve got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I’m trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I’m not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you’d just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I’m saving all my loving
For someone who’s loving me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I’d crumble
Did you think I’d lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I’ll be alive
I’ve got all my life to live
I’ve got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

Some things are just meant to be

I still believe that we got a chance

I still believe that we got a chance to be

Too much is never enough

And too little to never enough

Full speed got me looking out my rear view

I can’t go back

Going a 100 in a 55

And i don’t know why i’m still alive

But i do what i can

But i know i can’t take anymore

I still believe in this rock n roll

N i pray the music gon’ save my soul

But til then i still believe

Some things are just meant to be

It’s messed up but i got this mission

Drunk again won’t remember anyway

She said it’s just a game boy

Don’t be gone

Don’t be gone for long

Ten years i been doing this forever

It’s all i know baby please don’t turn away

I know you don’t believe in me

But i do believe in you

Doin’ a 100 in a 55

And i don’t know why i’m still alive

I do what i can but i know i can’t take anymore

I still believe in this rock n roll

And i pray the music gon’ save my soul

But til then i still believe

Some things are just meant to be

I’m still falling

Away from here

Away from here

I’m still falling

This winds are falling on

I can’t go back

I’m in too deep

Going a 100 in a 55

And i don’t know why i’m still alive

But i do what i can

But i know i can’t take anymore

I still believe in this rock n roll

N i pray the music gon’ save my soul

But until then i still believe

Something

Goin’ 100 in a 55

And i don’t know why i’m still alive

But i do what i can but i know i can’t take anymore

I can’t take more baby

I still beleive in this rock n roll

And i pray this music gon’ save my soul

But ’til then

I still believe

Some things are just meant to be

I still beleive

Some things are just meant to be

I still believe

Some things are just meant to be

Yeah

I still believe

Some things are just meant to be

I know you are the only one
My little taste of heaven
You know I am the only one
Your bitter taste of hell

Your eyes scream the end is creeping in
I’ll need thirty-seven stitches to keep the pain in
I know you are the only one
On the darkest side of the sun
On the darkest side of the sun, ooh yeah

Followed the piper’s sweet whistling
Guided down the path by the wrong hand
Close my eyes for the chance of a better view
Close my ears so I couldn’t hear you

And I know you are the one
And you know I am the one
Your bitter taste of hell

I know you are the only one
A little taste of heaven
And you know I am the only one
Your bitter taste of hell

Your eyes scream the end is creeping in
I’ll need thirty-seven stitches, to keep the pain in
I know you are the only one
On the darkest side of the sun

Do you see me sitting here?
Still waiting for you to say anything
Head hung low kicking stones down
Kicking stones down the road to hell now
I’m waiting for you, I’m waiting for you, just say anything, yeah

I know you are the only one
A little taste of heaven
And you know I am the only one
Your bitter taste of hell

Your eyes scream the end is creeping in
I’ll need thirty-seven stitches, thirty-seven stitches, yeah
I know you are the only one
On the darkest side of the sun

I know, I know, the darkest side of the sun
You are the one on the darkest side of the sun

By Drowning Pool

Sosh

I know it has been awhile again. Just been concentrating on life and getting geared up for having a new baby. Yes, I will be the proud parent of a new child. I am excited. Super Excited. The circumstances are less then nominal, but I am hopeful for the best and will provide the best for this child.

I am working hard and trying to get another job on top of the two I have now, just so I can save and try to get a house prior to the baby coming at the end of Feb. It is stressful, but a good thing as it has given my life even more direction.

I get down and depressed still, but I am trying my best not to. It is hard when the situation sucks. But this too, shall pass. 8) I will say that I am very greatful for my friends. The old friends that support me and the new friends that I didnt realize I had. All are wonderful and very supportive of me. Thank you all, even though I know you will never read this, as you dont know its here.

See I am in love with the mother of my unborn child, but she has decided to be with someone else. I dont think it is a wise decision for her, but I will support her in her decision. Perhaps she will see soon that it isnt a great situation for her. Only she can wake up to see the truth of the situation. We had it great for 6 months and that I will keep in my mind and not allow the nasty crap that has happened recently to spoil my memories.

I want to go back to school, but at this point I dont think I will be able to for a little while. maybe a year or two. We shall see. I have had several women ask me out since this whole thing with baby mama has occurred, but I am not ready. Yeh, it would be nice to have sex again, but right now I dont want any emotional stuff unless it is baby mama. I would love to sleep with her again, one last time before she moves, but I dont think that will ever happen again. And that is ok, as I will move on soon enough. I just want to get my life straightened out first.

More to come later, so check back in…

sosh

-sosh

I’ve said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I’ve tried

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it’s over I’ll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it’s over I don’t wan’t you to hurt
It’s all that I can say. So, I’ll be on my way

I finally put it all together,
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine,
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase,
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that’s the way it should be,
You know I’ve led my life like a gypsy

I’ve said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I’ve tried

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it’s over I’ll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it’s over I don’t wan’t you to hurt
It’s all that I can say. So, I’ll be on my way

I’ll always keep you inside, you healed my
Heart and my life… And you know I try.

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it’s over I’ll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it’s over I don’t wan’t you to hurt
It’s all that I can say. So, I’ll be on my way
So, I’ll be on my way
So, I’ll be on my way

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain don’t go away

I see your shadow all the time
I see your face inside my mirror
Like a sunset in the sky
You distract me from my fears
I keep holding it inside
And I wish that you were near
It’s better when You’re here

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain don’t go away

All the things you said
And all the games we played
Will come back to you
See the look in your eyes
Ooooh, don’t’ go away

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain why I feel this way
It’s hard to say
I want to make you see
What you mean to me
Don’t go away

I just want to tell you how truly happy I am for you. I’ve been going to write for awhile now and think of you quite often. Every 3 doors down song seems to remind me of you and a whole lot of nickelback. She must be one lucky girl, and I hope she treats you with all of the love and respect you deserve. You are an amazing Dad, life just had a way of making it hard on you from the start I think. Please keep me posted on how things are going. I miss you and I so badly want to think of you being part of a happy family!
Thinking of you…….from Far Away………..

If not second…. its a higher number.

I want to obtain my goals, my dreams. I want to go to school, but it seems just so far out of reach. I want to own a home but that seems totally impossible. I want to have a family, but that never seems to work…..

Always second… always to far out of reach… always bleh…

I will have my dreams, I will obtain my goals, I will succeed and I will prove all this…. to noone but myself.

I am miserable