Disrespected
You know, I am not one to get pissed off for stupid ppl I dont like saying shit about me. But tonight I got more angry and upset, than I have been in a couple years. I went to my “usuall” bar and was having a good time for the most part. I mean I had a few bumps in the road such as a dumb drunk ugly bitch steal my pool table just after I racked the balls. but anyways wasnt that big of a deal, got over it fast.
So I was just sitting with a buddie, and I had noticed a guy named Mack sitting a couple chairs down from me. I never really liked him much being he is conceded and when ever I have tried to initiate conversation before, he ignored me or said something stupid with the attitude he was better than I. So a few minutes pass and another buddie sitting between Mack and I gets up and leaves. Mack looks over a few after that, and says “why you wearing that uniform?” again in that I am better than you attitude, due to me wearing my Military DCU’s. So I look over and said in a short and snappy reply, “Cuz I Can!”. He’s looking at me in disbelief. Then he says “is that your answer?” and I just nodded without looking at him.
Mack then said “is that your name…… Schwartzenager?” and I look over with a shitty look, and he said “or Schwartzemager?” and I replied and short and snotty like “Yeh, something like that” and turned my head back but watching him from the corner of my eye. He turns his head to the bar shaking it in disrespect. So a minute passes and he started to speak so I turned my head towards him. He said “Well I dont believe you for wearing that and and……………. and that is my problem”.
Man I got so pissed. I mean I acctully feal a slight bit of those who served in Vietnam and came home to ridicul. I was so pissed. I wasnt so much pissed that it happened to me, I was pissed that he would say that to someone in uniform. I mean who the fuck is he. I believe he was a Marine at one time. And for him to pull this shit. Fuck you Mack!
So my heart pumped so fucking hard I could swear ppl could see it pumping through my chest. I was so angered. The only thing I was thinking is to stand up, reach back, and just bitch slap him as hard as I could to provoke a fight and let him swing……. and swing I wish he would have, cuz I would have trampled that mother fucker.
But I couldnt only for the fact I was in uniform and the fact is that I fight for his and everyones freedom and that freedom includes him tlaking shit or for ppl to burn the flag I live and would die by. So I started to think I should go home, change, and then come back and see if he wanted some then.
But I feel I did the right thing by sitting there and holding my patients back even while he went over and started talking more shit to another person about me. I held it. I cant believe I held it. You know for someone to ignore me when I am in civilian clothes and then get the nerve to talk to me when I am in uniform with nothing but attitude and shit talk. That is bullshit.
I dont think I will be going back there for awhile. I think I need a brake from that place. I havent been going there much lately as it is, and I now know why. If he ever does something like that again, to me or anyone else, I will fucking kick his ass and show him that his money wont protect him. Stupid mother fucking piece of shit.
So anyways he left a while later and I just sat there. I was still so pissed. I was hurt. I was playing megatouch and I actully had tears forming in my eyes. Why would someone do that to me. I was hurt. I am still hurt. I cant believe this shit. I will find peace with this. Whether it takes time or a good ass whipping, I will find peace.
Fucking commy bastards.
Well anyways, have a great night and take care all. Tomorrow is a new day.
