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Time isn’t as time was
You changed
I long for your old embrace
Fearful it wont come

Long your face grows
Colder your heart becomes
Love holds us together
shredded my heart becomes

Love I never Imagined
It certainly grew
At least for me

Despair you share
Cold shoulders
You prepare
Nothing left to give

I feel it all
With every word
You speak

Know this my dear
In end you can’t repair
My heart
You tore

I love you
And only you
My heart
No longer beats

4-28-10 02:29

Grazing through pictures
Enjoying what I see
Knowing what will come
I slow down

Your skin so soft and smooth
Eyes shining like a star
There you are…
Your absolutely gorgeous

Catching my eye
A phrase now upon me
Gasping for air
I knew it was coming

Much like death
It is inevitable to know
but cant keep
From happening

A constant reminder
Not Hidden
Not showing
However always there

In the end
Controlled or not
Eventually someone
Everyone hurts

Time comes as time goes
And I have not what I want
Forever plus a day
Life grows longer
Time grows shorter
Faster and faster the clocks turn
Smaller and smaller the memorys
Everyones seems colder
The population grows larger

Forgive me
Judge me
Blame me
In the end
You loved me

Your tears and my fears
Destroyed our passion
Passion for one another
One that should have
Survived it all

You quit
Ended it
Refused shame
Pushed blame
And gave up

Open is not love
It remains locked
Deep in a chest
Calling out in a rythmic beat
Thump Thump
Silence
Thump Thump
Slience

Looking up endlessly
At a wall in front of me
Left and right
This wall never ends
Running and jumping
Only to fail… landing hard

I wont quit
Giving up isn’t optional
Time and time again
I can’t quit

Chizzel and hammer
I slowly break this wall
Dust and pieces break
Slowly pieces turn to piles
This wall is thick… but I wont quit

Seeing the light
Glaring through the granite
The locked chest in sight
I regain hope
Excitement corsing through my viens
My heart thumping

Spinning faster and faster
Falling down a hole
The light at the end
Brighter and brighter
Slowly growing larger

Gripping and clawing
The rock and dirt
To hard to grab
Fingers sore
Nails ripped off

Tired of trying
Scared of more pain
Bleeding and bruised
I still try to grasp
Only to yet fail
Once again and again

Picking up speed
Falling and falling
Faster and faster
My muscles lack
Strength to hold

Further and further
My body grows colder
Time moves slower
Thoughts more desparate
Reality more distant

Where it ends
I don’t know
For I desire
To come soon
Rather than later

May the finish
Be quick
And painless
One can only dream
Though doubtful

Endless velocity
Forever in time
My sanity
Grows tired
And Expires