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Turn back on the broken hearted

Some things are just meant to be

I still believe that we got a chance

I still believe that we got a chance to be

Too much is never enough

And too little to never enough

Full speed got me looking out my rear view

I can’t go back

 

Going a 100 in a 55

And i don’t know why i’m still alive

But i do what i can

But i know i can’t take anymore

I still believe in this rock n roll

N i pray the music gon’ save my soul

But til then i still believe

Some things are just meant to be

 

It’s messed up but i got this mission

Drunk again won’t remember anyway

She said it’s just a game boy

Don’t be gone

Don’t be gone for long

Ten years i been doing this forever

It’s all i know baby please don’t turn away

I know you don’t believe in me

But i do believe in you

 

Doin’ a 100 in a 55

And i don’t know why i’m still alive

I do what i can but i know i can’t take anymore

I still believe in this rock n roll

And i pray the music gon’ save my soul

But til then i still believe

Some things are just meant to be

 

I’m still falling

Away from here

Away from here

I’m still falling

This winds are falling on

I can’t go back

I’m in too deep

 

Going a 100 in a 55

And i don’t know why i’m still alive

But i do what i can

But i know i can’t take anymore

I still believe in this rock n roll

N i pray the music gon’ save my soul

But until then i still believe

Something

 

Goin’ 100 in a 55

And i don’t know why i’m still alive

But i do what i can but i know i can’t take anymore

I can’t take more baby

I still beleive in this rock n roll

And i pray this music gon’ save my soul

But ’til then

I still believe

Some things are just meant to be

I still beleive

Some things are just meant to be

I still believe

Some things are just meant to be

 

Yeah

 

I still believe

Some things are just meant to be

Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
Send me on my way still smiling
Maybe that’s the way I should go,
Straight into the mouth of the unknown
I left the spare key on the table
Never really thought I’d be able to say
I merely visit on the weekends
I lost my whole life and a dear friend

I’ve said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I’ve tried

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it’s over I’ll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it’s over I don’t wan’t you to hurt
It’s all that I can say. So, I’ll be on my way

I finally put it all together,
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine,
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase,
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that’s the way it should be,
You know I’ve led my life like a gypsy

I’ve said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I’ve tried

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it’s over I’ll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it’s over I don’t wan’t you to hurt
It’s all that I can say. So, I’ll be on my way

I’ll always keep you inside, you healed my
Heart and my life… And you know I try.

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it’s over I’ll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it’s over I don’t wan’t you to hurt
It’s all that I can say. So, I’ll be on my way
So, I’ll be on my way
So, I’ll be on my way

In my darkest state of mind
I am riddled with despair
When I try and close my eyes
Your voice is all I hear
I will think of you tonight
I will hold back all my tears
I’ve waited all these years

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain don’t go away

I see your shadow all the time
I see your face inside my mirror
Like a sunset in the sky
You distract me from my fears
I keep holding it inside
And I wish that you were near
It’s better when You’re here

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain don’t go away

All the things you said
And all the games we played
Will come back to you
See the look in your eyes
Ooooh, don’t’ go away

Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
Please don’t go away
You’re making a mistake
You and I were meant to be
You opened up my eyes
And made me realize
Now its changing everything
It’s crazy how I feel this way
I can’t explain why I feel this way
It’s hard to say
I want to make you see
What you mean to me
Don’t go away

I always seem to be second best, and it drives me nuts….

If not second…. its a higher number.

I want to obtain my goals, my dreams. I want to go to school, but it seems just so far out of reach. I want to own a home but that seems totally impossible. I want to have a family, but that never seems to work…..

Always second… always to far out of reach… always bleh…

I will have my dreams, I will obtain my goals, I will succeed and I will prove all this…. to noone but myself.

I am miserable

There comes a time, a Point in Time where one must say enough. I am coming to that point. I can only handle so much. I have tried and tried. I cannot take it anymore. I cant stand co-existing/co-habitating when there is nothing personal. I feel like a tool, literally a tool. A means of nessesity rather than anything else. I should be a luxury. A means of pleasure rather than anything, not a means of nessesity.

Tired of the fight. The fight of a hope, a hope which you are unsure of.