unsoshabl » Life

My Love

unsoshabl — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 10:00:41 +0000

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

Advice not taken

unsoshabl — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 07:25:54 +0000

My friends are always telling
me to move on, to give up.
But why? Why should I?
They don’t see you the way that I see you.
They don’t look into your eyes
and see the world.
Why would they understand?
They can’t possibly imagine what
it means to look at your best friend
and see all their hopes
and dreams come true.
I wish for once, just once,
they could walk a mile in my shoes.
But they wouldn’t need to walk that far,
they would just take one step and suddenly,
they would take back every bit of
‘getting over you’ advice they had
ever given me and realize you’re my life,
you were meant for me,
and that moving on or giving up
is simply not an option.

Snuff – Slipknot

unsoshabl — Mon, 23 Aug 2010 09:36:18 +0000

37 Stiches

unsoshabl — Mon, 23 Aug 2010 09:20:34 +0000

Do you see me sitting here?
I’m waiting for you to say anything
Head hung low, kicking stones down
Kicking stones down the road to hell now
I’m waiting for you to say anything, anything, yeah

I know you are the only one
My little taste of heaven
You know I am the only one
Your bitter taste of hell

Your eyes scream the end is creeping in
I’ll need thirty-seven stitches to keep the pain in
I know you are the only one
On the darkest side of the sun
On the darkest side of the sun, ooh yeah

Followed the piper’s sweet whistling
Guided down the path by the wrong hand
Close my eyes for the chance of a better view
Close my ears so I couldn’t hear you

And I know you are the one
And you know I am the one
Your bitter taste of hell

I know you are the only one
A little taste of heaven
And you know I am the only one
Your bitter taste of hell

Your eyes scream the end is creeping in
I’ll need thirty-seven stitches, to keep the pain in
I know you are the only one
On the darkest side of the sun

Do you see me sitting here?
Still waiting for you to say anything
Head hung low kicking stones down
Kicking stones down the road to hell now
I’m waiting for you, I’m waiting for you, just say anything, yeah

I know you are the only one
A little taste of heaven
And you know I am the only one
Your bitter taste of hell

Your eyes scream the end is creeping in
I’ll need thirty-seven stitches, thirty-seven stitches, yeah
I know you are the only one
On the darkest side of the sun

I know, I know, the darkest side of the sun
You are the one on the darkest side of the sun

By Drowning Pool

Tired, but Determined

unsoshabl — Fri, 20 Aug 2010 07:01:59 +0000

Good day all,

I know it has been awhile again. Just been concentrating on life and getting geared up for having a new baby. Yes, I will be the proud parent of a new child. I am excited. Super Excited. The circumstances are less then nominal, but I am hopeful for the best and will provide the best for this child.

I am working hard and trying to get another job on top of the two I have now, just so I can save and try to get a house prior to the baby coming at the end of Feb. It is stressful, but a good thing as it has given my life even more direction.

I get down and depressed still, but I am trying my best not to. It is hard when the situation sucks. But this too, shall pass. 8) I will say that I am very greatful for my friends. The old friends that support me and the new friends that I didnt realize I had. All are wonderful and very supportive of me. Thank you all, even though I know you will never read this, as you dont know its here.

See I am in love with the mother of my unborn child, but she has decided to be with someone else. I dont think it is a wise decision for her, but I will support her in her decision. Perhaps she will see soon that it isnt a great situation for her. Only she can wake up to see the truth of the situation. We had it great for 6 months and that I will keep in my mind and not allow the nasty crap that has happened recently to spoil my memories.

I want to go back to school, but at this point I dont think I will be able to for a little while. maybe a year or two. We shall see. I have had several women ask me out since this whole thing with baby mama has occurred, but I am not ready. Yeh, it would be nice to have sex again, but right now I dont want any emotional stuff unless it is baby mama. I would love to sleep with her again, one last time before she moves, but I dont think that will ever happen again. And that is ok, as I will move on soon enough. I just want to get my life straightened out first.

More to come later, so check back in…

sosh

-sosh

Call Me

unsoshabl — Sat, 24 Jul 2010 22:04:07 +0000

Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
Send me on my way still smiling
Maybe that’s the way I should go,
Straight into the mouth of the unknown
I left the spare key on the table
Never really thought I’d be able to say
I merely visit on the weekends
I lost my whole life and a dear friend

I’ve said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I’ve tried

Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it’s over I’ll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it’s over I don’t wan’t you to hurt
It’s all that I can say. So, I’ll be on my way

I finally put it all together,
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine,
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase,
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that’s the way it should be,
You know I’ve led my life like a gypsy

I’ve said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I’ve tried

I’ll always keep you inside, you healed my
Heart and my life… And you know I try.

A note from an old friend

unsoshabl — Mon, 19 Jul 2010 04:26:17 +0000

This is a note from an ex of mine.

I just want to tell you how truly happy I am for you. I’ve been going to write for awhile now and think of you quite often. Every 3 doors down song seems to remind me of you and a whole lot of nickelback. She must be one lucky girl, and I hope she treats you with all of the love and respect you deserve. You are an amazing Dad, life just had a way of making it hard on you from the start I think. Please keep me posted on how things are going. I miss you and I so badly want to think of you being part of a happy family!
Thinking of you…….from Far Away………..

2nd

unsoshabl — Sat, 10 Jul 2010 04:14:47 +0000

I always seem to be second best, and it drives me nuts….

If not second…. its a higher number.

I want to obtain my goals, my dreams. I want to go to school, but it seems just so far out of reach. I want to own a home but that seems totally impossible. I want to have a family, but that never seems to work…..

Always second… always to far out of reach… always bleh…

I will have my dreams, I will obtain my goals, I will succeed and I will prove all this…. to noone but myself.

I am miserable

Point In Time

unsoshabl — Mon, 05 Jul 2010 21:28:09 +0000

There comes a time, a Point in Time where one must say enough. I am coming to that point. I can only handle so much. I have tried and tried. I cannot take it anymore. I cant stand co-existing/co-habitating when there is nothing personal. I feel like a tool, literally a tool. A means of nessesity rather than anything else. I should be a luxury. A means of pleasure rather than anything, not a means of nessesity.

Tired of the fight. The fight of a hope, a hope which you are unsure of.

Mad World

unsoshabl — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 07:27:41 +0000

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me