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This was sent to me by a couple very dear friends…

We need about 250 more of these congressmen and 100 senetors too.

Perhaps a president that knew what being American is about…

I appoiogize for not posting the last few days. Been working hard on a few different projects. I have also been busy reading the health care reform bill. It is full of crap and un-American ways of thought.
I often go to a site called help.com and a question came up of what do ppl have against obamas health reform? so I replied with some of the things I dont like about it. Like raising taxes, peneltys if you dont take it, it is a start to socialism in America, it violates my rights as a citizen.
Our forefathers faught for our independance against a nation that was over bearing in its laws. They faught for our freedoms to live with choices. Choices that we could make without penelty. Now our nations leaders are trying to create laws to go against what many of our forefathers taught and some died for. This isnt right.
if I chose not to buy car insuance, I wouldnt drive as that is a luxury. Life is not a luxury, it is a right. A right we all have. So if I choose not to purchase health insuance does that mean I forfiet my right to live? Thats not fair. Thats like me choosing to own a car to sit my driveway and not drive, but still having to pay for car insuance. Where is the justification in that?
one guy that is debating with me on the other site has epilepsy. I think that was it. He really wants the NHC to go through so he can have health insuance. See insuance companies wont insure him as he is too high risk. I think that the insurance companies should cover him. I think we should pass legislation to allow for ppl born with diseases etc should be covered, but to put in a national health care program is fucking stupid.
I am starting to believe Obama is dpi g this to put his name down I. The history books of one of the greatest presidents. I dont think the hcr act will do anything but put our country in a more dire situation.
I have been very upset about this topic the last few days. I just dont get why ppl are so blind to see what they are doing and the freedoms they are taking away from us. What will it be next after this?

Btw, sorry this is short, had to post it from my phone.

“come my dear lets get this over with”
She reaches for my blood drenched hand
My eyes fixed pupils large and set
Staring at her beautiful body through a tight translucent black mesh garment wrapping her body

with a long dark cloak draped around her neck and down her back to the ground
Her bitter cold gripped my fingers and palm
Ice growing through my now empty veins
As the crystaling reached my shoulder I jerked away
Reclaiming the hold on my life and ripping it from her cold death grip
I scream out in pain as the throbbing of nerves now being rewarmed from freshly pumped blood
Should I could I would I
Take the chance to seduce this gorgeous being of death
Run seduce kill torment
What choice do I make to escape this curse

In a fast and smooth swoop this gorgeous creature was wrapped under my uninjured arm
Her supple firm breast and tough tender thighs pressed hard against me

the cold sending a tremble through me from through the thin mesh she wore
She gasped when as it occurred that turned in to a  long moan
knowing full well if I gave in to my weakness of pleasure
I would never keep my life
a life I now crave, respect, and admire
I slowly kiss her cheek, jaw line, neck
all the while this creature of beauty and darkness moaning
kissing up her neck to the bottom of her ear lobe
I whisper ever so softly, come back tonight
I will go with you after taking you…

To my astonishment she agreed
“with one term” she said
“I must take something now so I know your truthful”
her icey hand grabbed mine and she brought it her mouth
suddenly my right index finger was soaked in bitter cold
as it was now in her mouth
a torrent of pain ripped through me as she bit down
my hand now free, minus a finger
a small chuckle came from this beast
“I have your finger which holds what little confidence you once had”

*please note I had to change the dates to allow them to be in order*

Death came to me this day
Sweetness on her breath as the words poured,
“with sadness I inform you that it is time to pay
A good life you made worthless… you must defend it.. in the highest of courts,
And this court will decide fire or bliss behind pearly gates”
In return I scream “whos choice to decide its my time
I dont agree with others deciding my fate
Even if the hell Icreated is in my head… This is no crime
Not for you them or anyone but me to choose”
Her stunning green and red eyes peircing me from behind her black vail
“my son this if this is a fight… You lose
Clenching that knife to your wrist… You already fail”

“what knife” I exclaim
Looking down and realizing my choice
Realizing my life is so very lame
Pain and Fear shaking in my voice
Blood rolling down my wrist to elbow
weaving in and out of the hair
Realizing I have hit a new low
I really do care,
Why, who, what, how
The questions keep coming
As I hear voices of friends family and foe
So fast and constant like a hum.

“Smart, pleasant, giving and caring” said one,
“Kind, loving, thoughtful and fun” said another,
As I listen from below, the weeps of those I love
My body sitting alone in a wood box,
my life no longer in exsistance,
I can no longer change my action,
I now completely understand regret.

*please note I had to change the dates to allow them to be in order*

I am now thinking it is time for a change. I am tired of being the person I am. I use to be a little more ambitious, goal oriented, and happy. Since the layoff, I have been miserable. I have realized that there is so much for me to do with my life and that I have passed on opportunitys that could have made me so much more of the man I desire to be.

I am ready to get this clothing company off the ground an I am ready to take the risks involved to get it done. If I lose a little money, so be it!

I have been offered free housing on a boat in a marina in San diego. I have pondered this so much. I want to do it so badly, but then again I do twant to lose out on the relationships I have formed here in phoenix.

Right now I am confident, but confused as hell too!